stormy sky in autumn ~ my favorite!
Wow, this post has taken a long time to write. It’s cathartic and contains some things I needed to set out on paper — even virtual paper — in order to work through them.
Thanks for your indulgence!
I have always been glad to live in a place where I can experience four seasons. Without winter, I don’t think I would appreciate spring. I’ve always especially loved autumn. In my old life, I looked forward to this season of change; trees adorned in flaming colors against dark and stormy skies and that brisk feeling in the air lending new energy to my walk and to my outlook on life.
Then last autumn came crashing in.
living room of the old house ~ almost through packing
It’s just over a year since the Massachusetts house was sold.
It had to be sold and I was glad, but… it resulted in a period of panic and mayhem which gave way to a period of anger and frustration, all due to circumstances beyond my control.
Memories of that time are bitter, and I hate that.
I don’t like to be bitter. That’s not *me*!
Since April I have been racing from that old life headfirst into the new. I’ve been frantic.
Frantic is not good. It’s time to stop and remember. It’s time to assimilate all that happened. It’s ok to have a good cry over what should have been. It’s time to heal.
Therefore, I am doing my best to allow myself to feel every emotion I pushed deep down inside last year. If I can do that, I can continue to forge ahead into my new life with my customary enthusiasm.
My new life is a bright one and happy, but sometimes it’s hard to be cheerful *every day*.
It’s tough to be away from my kids. Though they are grown to adulthood I am forever bound to them. There are moments when I am a bit lonesome for the m’n ms.
I can’t always predict or control when those moments occur.
They sneak up and ambush me. I’ve had a good meltdown or two, lately ;)
That’s ok; it’s not my fault.
the best kids in the world ~ nope, I am not biased :)
In my new life, I strive to make each day positive and peaceful after the uncertainty and upheaval of the past few years. Sometimes I succeed, other times I am still struggling.
I take comfort in believing that I made the best choices I could during a trying time — I did what I thought was best for both the kids and myself. It’s been a rough couple of weeks, but this too shall pass. Time is a great healer.
So is love.
autumn view at my new home ~ bird pond and chickadee at the feeder
There is a lot to be said for a small gesture made by one, which means so much to another. The old adage is true — sometimes actions speak louder than words :)
When the corn had been eaten (mostly by raccoons) and the plants began to fall over, I mentioned to DG that a corn shock would be the perfect autumn decoration. At that time, he didn’t really go for the idea — perhaps it was too festive ;)
Several days ago, a corn shock was waiting when I returned from work. Dear G made it for me. That small gesture, as well many larger ones have spoken volumes.
I am snug under a new roof, with a new room at the back of the house besides. The garage has been cleared so that my car fits in, and that enormous supply of wood mentioned in a previous post, cut and stacked by hand, is at the front door. All this is done in anticipation of the cold and snowy winter to come, and it is all very much appreciated by me.
the corn shock that DG made for me, leaning on the huge wood pile he made for winter warmth… yep, I am happy :)
Did I mention I have a little pumpkin and scarecrow near the front step, and the maize is hanging on the front door as I have always had (and probably he has never had) — making the new home more home-like for me.
So, to you Dearest G — thank you for your constant winter preparation, as well as festive fall decorations.
Thank you for your love; spoken and unspoken alike.
Meanwhile, back in the kitchen…
I made some garden fritters a la Mandira!
I did make changes to the veggies. Mandira’s recipe called for besan, we had just picked green peppers, and I love green peppers and besan combo! I boiled the corn and cut it off the cob, and I added jalepenos. I roasted all the veggies in a non-stick pan with a spritz of oil. I tried two versions — with and without egg. The egg version came out something like a pajeon!
Both were great with maggi sauce :)
Garden Fritters a la Mandira
see original recipe here
2 c corn kernels (2 small ears, cut from the cob after boiling)
1 c green bell pepper, seeded and diced (1 large pepper)
2-3 jalepeno peppers, seeded and diced
1/2 c onion, diced
1/2 c besan
1/4 c rice flour
1 tsp cumin powder
1 tsp chaat masala
salt to taste
ground pepper to taste
water to make a thick batter
canola oil (or Pam) for spritzing
canola oil for shallow frying
optional: one egg
Heat a nonstick pan over med-high heat and spritz with canola oil or Pam. Add diced veggies and let them roast for 5-10 minutes — it depends somewhat on the heat of your burners. We don’t want to burn the veggies, only roast them golden with a few dark spots. Flip and toss them from time to time, until they smell and look roasted. Remove to a plate and allow to cool for a few minutes.
pan-roasted: corn, bell pepper, onion and jalepenos
Meantime, mix the besan and rice flour along with the seasonings in a large bowl.
When the pan-roasted veggies have cooled, add them to the bowl of seasoned flours. Mix well and add sufficient water to form a thick batter. I used approx. 1/2 c plus a couple teaspoons.
a thick batter for fritters ~ optional egg added after frying the first batch :)
Heat canola oil in a non-stick pan over med-high. When it’s hot, make the fritters by dropping spoonfuls in, flattening them as you go. Cook until golden and then turn to fry the other side — approx. 5 min per side but your mileage may vary depending on your burner.
Remove fritters and drain on paper towels to absorb excess oil.
Serve hot with Maggi (dg’s favorite) or your favorite chutney/condiment.
*Optional: mix one beaten egg with the batter and cook in the same manner. These will be softer inside and more like a Korean panjeon. The jury is still out on which was tastier :)
garden fritters a la Mandira! classic on the left and more korean/pajeon style on the right
view from the mailbox is some changed from May ~ still a very happy camper!